I
live in northern Alberta, Canada and just like everyone else I was
trying to make a career for myself. I was working at the hospital as a
health record technician. Met my husband Vic in 1979, we married in 1982
and the bombshell came crashing down on December 17, 1985. I'll never
forget that "life changing" day! I had been noticing numbness in my toes
and fingers. This kept coming and going. Saw the doctor and he said
(because I'd been overweight) oh
your probably dieting too much, not eating well. He could think whatever
he wanted I knew something was not right.
After
some time I got referred to a hospital in B.C. I was admitted to
hospital for one week and many tests were done. The spinal tap (YUCK)
was the test confirming my diagnosis. Remember there were no MRI 's back
then.
Devastated and scared because I'd never heard about M.S. before we came home and started a whole new life.
We
managed best we could as there was no "m.s. drugs out then. I was
working full time and things were good so in 1988 our daughter was born 7
1/2 weeks pre-maturely. You know me couldn't do anything the easy way
😜. Then another daughter in 1992. We are a close knit family so I had
help whenever I needed. But physically could only work until 1985.
Okay
so now I'm home on disability and not wanting to leave the house for
fear of what people were saying. She's not sick she looks fine, why
should she be on disability. This ate away at me, it was months before I
felt comfortable leaving the house. I would think to myself - no don't
do your hair and put make up on, that will make them think there's
really nothing wrong with me.
Bu you know what they
have no idea about the nights I sat on the edge of the bed crying for
2-3 hours because my arms ached or my legs were jumping. Or when I
couldn't walk because of optic neuritis, or just couldn't sleep. They
had no fricken idea.
My doctor told me to go on
disability. He said go home and enjoy your family, do what you can while
you can because if you end up in a wheelchair and can't enjoy your
family - the hospital isn't going give a damn about you - they probably
won't even remember who you are!
So that's how I live my life. I enjoy every day as much as I can. Some days not much at and other days are amazing!
M.S. May have changed the way I do things but I still get them done 😘💕💕
Tecfidera update:
I
started tecfidera on July 3 and I'm still doing amazing. No more side
effects. I have noticed my brain fog has definitely been less. I still
have some brain-farts when I know what I want to say but the right words
just don't come out. But hey I know people who don't have m.s. that
have this trouble.
Also I've noticed I hardly fall at
all. My family notice that I'm much steadier when walking. This has been
so good because when I'm doing better for sure I'm not getting as
depressed as I used to.
Probably the biggest improvement for me has been in my sleep. I sleep through the night and wake up so rested, I love it.
Hope other angels on tecfidera are noticing some positive changes.
Prayers and love to all angels. See you next week 💕💕
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